Thursday, June 2, 2011

Sweetness

She begged me to take her on a wagon ride when I was trying to get her to go to bed for the night. Whatever Clara wants, Clara gets. :) 

Clara's first physical therapy session was this morning. It only lasted 15 minutes, but it did her in. Her white blood cell counts are starting to drop as a result of the chemotherapy so she has less energy than she had a couple of days ago. Yesterday they started the Neupogen injections that will be given most days to help boost her white blood cells. She also got her first blood transfusion this afternoon, all the while eating 2 personal pan Pizza Hut pizzas. She lost a little at the beginning of her feast, but kept on plowing through the pepperoni and Hawaiian pizza, alternating bites. I suppose she was making up for the weeks of not eating. They even delivered it to our room. I think she could get used to this!

Oh how life has changed in just a short amount of time! To think that just two weeks ago I was lamenting on what to cook for dinner and now I'm lamenting on how to keep Clara from tugging at her central line.

Yet through it all, she remains sweet and submissive. It's a bit unreal actually. A two year old telling her nurse, "thank you, thank you" after an injection two days in a row. The thank yous are endless. Take her temp..."thank you". Check her blood pressure..."thank you". Listen to her heart and lungs..."thank you". Every so often the spunky two year old will make an appearance and say "no" to me, but it's very rare. In the condition she is in and the things she endures, I'm completely amazed. This little 2 year old blond girl has a mission and purpose. I am thankful I have the privilege of sharing it with you.      xoxoNatasha

Our Father in Heaven, in His great wisdom and love, sends His spirit sons and daughters to this earth as children. They come to families as precious gifts with a divine nature and destiny. Our Heavenly Father knows children are a key to helping us become like Him. There is so much we can learn from children.

11 comments:

Dlovesocks said...

I love reading your posts! Clara certainly does have a mission and a purpose. Please know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong. You're teaching me so much. Thank you!

Shannon Lybbert Low said...

Thank you again for sharing these intimate moments...now if I can just read them with out weeping! All my love to you and miss clara.

Britanny said...

I'm with Shannon on this one. I can't help but tear up at every one of your posts!

Candice said...

Natasha, I have been following your blog and I wanted to let you know that I have been thinking, crying and praying for you. She is such a beautiful little girl. You are so optimistic and faithful- Thanks for your example!

Brenda said...

Over the past couple weeks of this trial and reading your posts, my life has changed. I don't know how to explain it, but seeing your strength and faith in what is a unimaginable challenge has grown my testimony. Clara's illness has a purpose, Clara has a purpose. Shis is truly divine, an angel on earth. Thank you for sharing her sweet (teaching) moments with us.

Dallin, Ashley and Claire said...

What a great example she is. How many of us would say thank you at such a time? I know I would probably be thinking, "why me? why this?" What a sweet little girl. I love all your posts. They are so inspiring!

Teresa said...

We love you and your family, Natasha. Our prayers are with Clara and each of you every day. We cheer on the good days and pray harder on the bad days. The close-up shot Sarah took is priceless. Thanks for keeping us informed.

Anonymous said...

I don't know you guys, but I'm from Burbank and heard about it through facebook.
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I'm praying for healing, as well as your family as a whole.
I know, you know, that we are all Gods children..But have you ever thought that God is trusting YOU with the safety of another one of his children? He knows that Clara is the most safe and secure in YOUR HANDS. He put Clara in your life with absolute faith and trust in you. Don't be scared.. You will do amazing. You are Clara's GOD GIVEN parents. That's definitely something to smile about.. she's gorgeous with a kind, thankful heart.


"Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life." - Philippians 4:6-7

::lindsay said...

Just like all the others, I tear up reading these posts and am in complete awe of Clara and all of you. I was thinking the same thing as Ashley---here she is saying "thank you"---how sweet is she! We are all learning so much from sweet Clara and her mission and purpose. Thank you so much for sharing with all of us. You are in our prayers!

Sarah said...

Natasha and Brian- I wish I could express what I feel when I read all of this. So many people think of and pray for you all daily. We love you and your example.

LKP said...

her gratitude is breathtaking. many adults in her situation would not be so openly grateful or at least not as vocal about it. you have an angel living in your midst, that's just all there is to it. she herself is a miracle!