Thursday, August 2, 2012

Holding on


Clara is still holding on, but with less energy than she has had in the last month and a half. We wish she could just let go and be free. She is peaceful though and the miracle of modern medicine is keeping her comfortable, but a part of her is missing and we hope she will soon be whole again. In a rare moment today when she was coherent I told her, "It is okay, you can go to heaven, we will be all right." She whispered, "Not yet, I want to stay here with you guys." 

The wisdom in her soul is greater than I could ever hope to understand in this life. She will go when she is ready. Meanwhile, our family is blessed by the love, support and charity of so many. We are learning more and more what we can do and need to do to be more Christlike by the examples all around us. Thank you, thank you a million times over.



34 comments:

Jodi said...

Oh Natasha, my heart is breaking for your family. I'm so grateful for you keeping us updated as we have been thinking of you all constantly. And I'm so happy that she's comfortable and surrounded by her loving family. Continued prayers. Love you guys!

Emily Ferrell said...

Thanks for the update Natasha. I think about you guys all the time and pray often for you. Love you guys. I am crying while reading this. Clara's response made my heart melt.

Monica said...

Natasha, you are an incredible woman! Tears are streaming down my face as I read your blog. I cannot begin to fathom your pain, but through this trial your faith persevers! What an example you are to the world! My family continually prays for you and your family and Clara's comfort. What a sweet child God has blessed you with! Our prayers will continue!!

bigdogdano said...

We send you our love and prayers at this difficult time. You know our walk, we feel your trial. I don't know much, but I do know that in the silencing of the laugh, the twinkling eyes, the moments missed like prom, leaving primary for YW, seeing your baby girl joined in eternal band to a worthy young man; comes the ultimate joy and deeper, greater FAITH than you otherwise would have had. While I am sorry and sad for you on the human level, I rejoice for you on the spiritual level of having one so pure, so wonderful her calling and election was made sure. Blessed are those that mourn, for they shall be comforted. We love you guys. Dan & Val

Chelsea said...

This picture says it all.

amy said...

The picture is priceless. Your family has been and continues to be in our prayers!

AmyDane Designs said...

Love Clara...love you! Amy Cazier

amyharrisonphotography said...

Natasha and Sweet Clara,
We don't know each other, but my family and I have been praying for you every single day. I know that you have angels watching over you! Thank you for sharing your beautiful testimony of the gospel.
Thank you for sharing Clara's story and strength with us. We love you guys so much and we've never even met you!

Everything really is going to be okay.

AshleyFamily said...

Natasha,
While my heart swells for you and your sweet family, I can't help but be amazed by how you live embracing God's grace. What divine strength you've been given! My love and prayers are with you. - Alison

Kori said...

I am crying for you and Clara right now. She is so wise for someone so young. I pray all of you will continue to feel comfort. Each one of you have faced this trial with bravery and faith.

Sharron said...

Thank you so much for sharing this post. It has touch my heart deeply and taught me s lesson that I may need to rely on in the near future. God bless you and your family. Yo have often been in my prayers.

Paradise said...

I am so happy she is holding on to her earthly time with her eternal family. She is a true angel with great knowledge of the gospel. These children are so wise. And you are an amazing mom, with strength beyond your capacity to stand. Hold on to these moments Natasha, you will miss them in a crazy kind of way. I promise. You all are in my prayers and thoughts constantly.

Patrick and Paige said...

I don't know your family and you don't know mine. I don't even know how I came across your blog or who led me to it. I have been following your blog for over a year now. The tears are flowing as the time draws closer. She will indeed be whole again and will be with her heavenly father. She seems like such a sweetheart. Thank you for the updates. Although they are hard to read, It is nice to feel connected and hopefully it helps you to know that we are all thinking of you and keeping you in our thoughts and prayers. Love to you all and please give Clara and the rest of the family hugs from the Millers from Beaverton, Oregon.

Cajsa said...

I can't help but cry...She is truly an amazing girl and what great parents you are to have had the chance to raise her even if it is for such a short time. You're family is truly inspiring! We love you and think of you often.

Anonymous said...

Sweet Clara and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. May you all feel the peace and love from our Heavenly Father during this difficult time. You are an amazing family... Clara is blessed to have you for eternity.

Valynn

Anonymous said...

Hello. Though I do not know you personally, I have been following your blog and think of you and pray for you all so often. You are the most beautiful family, and Clara is such a sweet, sweet soul and a beautiful spirit wise beyond her earthly years. You, your family, your faith, and sweet Clara are such an inspiration to so many. As a mother, I can't even fathom your pain and am so humbled and inspired by the grace with which you are handling it. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It has touched many and has taught me what "to do to be more Christlike." Thank *you* a million times over.

Praying for you and wishing you all peace and comfort...

Jami said...

The things that come out of her mouth amaze me...and usually bring me to tears. I love you guys!

Stephanie said...

I have tears in my eyes reading this. She is such an amazing little girl. I pray for Clara and your family and for peace and comfort.

Stephanie Leonard

LKP said...

oh my goodness, what a precious spirit she is. so many hugs & prayers for you guys. you're right, in her time it will happen. the peace is a blessing. and how wonderful to have the understanding that she will be whole again soon. we admire you & your family's example of how to endure. love you all so very much. ::hugs::

Denise said...

I think about your family every day. Thank you for sharing your joy, pain, sadness and faith with us.

Gayle R said...

Natasha,
I don't even know what to say, I wish I could give you a hug- from one Momma to another.
You and your family inspire us all.
Hugs...Gayle R. and Megan

Anonymous said...

Your family is a live example of what fighting the good fight of Faith really is and what it takes. Prayers to each of you, hold one another, embrace the moments. Clara has a spirit that will last a lifetime.

Gloria said...

I have read all the other comments and there's nothing more that I can add except. . . The example your family has set for all of us makes me so very proud to be a Woodward too. You have pioneered a trail for us to emulate and follow and I thank you so much for that. I think Clara is just waiting for the Savior to break away from his busy life to pick her up. Once she sees Him she we eagerly run into his arms! Hold on to every precious minute until he gets there! Love & Prayers, Gloria

Dedra C said...

I don't know Clara but I have been following her story from day one. Brad and Sanette Casper are my aunt and uncle, my mom is Sanette's oldest sister. i met your mom at Brianna's wedding. anyway,

I want you to know I've been praying for her and your family too. You are an inspiration. Much love, Dedra Cheney

AzĂșcar said...

Extraordinary.

Sandi said...

Just ran across a prayer blog for sweet Clara. You are all in my prayers! May God lift you all up and wrap you in his arms!

Cristin said...

Praying for you all!!!!

melody hilliard aka melody slaugh said...

You don't know me but I so sorry for the pain you and your family are going through and I pray for you and you're family. I can help but think we are related some how though because my grandma is a woodward.

Anonymous said...

We missed you and your family at the lake this summer. My prayers are with Clara and your family. I hope you find peace.

Robin

Nettie said...

I came across your blog as I was looking for some info on my Lybbert genealogy. I'm not sure how we're related, but certain we are. My heart is so touched by what I have read. I've come back to it several times over the past 2 days. I feel great love and tenderness for your family. Adding you to my prayers.

Nettie Winsor

Anonymous said...

I have followed you for awhile. You have been in my thoughts over the last few hours. Praying for you and your sweet family.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the updates you share with us all. Clara is a true blessing to everyone who is priveledged to come in contact with her. You guys are all in my prayers during this difficult journey you are in. I miss Clara, her sweet smile, and cute lil giggle and think of you guys often. Continued prayers to your family.

Katie Holton

John Smith said...

Cool! I met trio this year! Nice video Moose!

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