Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Everything is going to be okay.

Words have failed me as I have tried a few times to start a post the last couple of weeks. It's been two weeks since we learned for certain that Clara's cancer came back and was spreading. It all happened so quickly. Overnight, it seems. One day she is  prancing around, riding her bike, jumping on the trampoline and the next day she's in pain and wants to sleep all day.

There is no more fighting. She has already fought the good fight and in the words of our sweet Clara herself, "Heaven is too far away, I want Jesus to pick me up." At the tender age of three years old, she is wise beyond her years and has always known what she wants. The peace we feel surpasses our understanding, but is undeniable. This is the right thing to do and we will live looking forward to our heavenly reunion all the days of our lives.

Thank you for your love, kindness and generosity as we have waded through this trial, your prayers most certainly have sustained us. The miracle we were blessed with, having 8 months of being together at home with a happy and full of life Clara has been better than we could have hoped. We can't wait to share eternity together.

Everything is going to be okay.


20 comments:

[M] said...

You are the bravest person I know. I can only hope that when I have to face something like this, that I can be as strong as you... Hugs!

Rachel said...

I don't know Clara, but have heard about her struggles from many people and she has been the topic of conversation more than once in my family. I can't imagine how hard the "see you later" is going to be with Clara, I really can't. All I know is everyone has told me how strong your family is and how loving- and I know you will all be brave. Thinking of you and your family!

Jodi said...

We love your family and continue to pray for your comfort. Clara has the sweetest spirit. I love her precious comments. Thinking of you. <3

blindblogger said...

What sweet words from Clara. I'm glad to hear you are feeling comfort and peace during this hard time. Love to you and Clara.

AmyDane Designs said...

You, your family and sweet sweet Clara are an example to us all. Her sweet spirit makes everyone smile and love her immediately. Our love and prayers are constant in your behalf. Amy Cazier

Shannon Lybbert Low said...

Much love to you tash and brian. Thank you for making the effort to put all of this into words...it brings much light to chase out dark.

Thomasene said...

Thanks Natasha. You and Brian have taught your children well and are a great example to all.

Judaloo said...

We continue to think of you and your family. You are always in our hearts and thoughts. Having to go through this is unfathomable for me, but I take great comfort in knowing forever families exist.

Ryan and Judy Leonard

Anonymous said...

Natasha,
My heart breaks for your family. As I came across your post tonight the flood gates opened. You are an amazing family and have been so strong through everything. I know your Faith has helped keep you strong through all of this. Please know that we are praying for peace and comfort for Clara. She is a beautiful baby girl inside and out and IS very wise for her age. Somehow going through childhood cancer does that to our children. It forces them to grow up beyond their years. Watching videos of her I continue to shed tears. I will hold Clara and your family close to my heart and in my prayers.
Melanie O'Brien

Dayna said...

Natasha,

Praying for you all. Thank you for your courage of sharing with us your painful journey. Clara is deeply loved.

Sarajolie said...

What a sweet family and what a special girl. We pray for you guys.

Stephanie said...

I am so sorry to hear that Clara's cancer is back. As awful as this sounds, I have thoughts nearly every day about what we will do if we get put in that same situation, and I've had the same thought of "everything is going to be okay."

I know that we have never met, but my heart truly aches for you and your family. I'm so glad that I have been able to "meet" Clara through this blog and see what an amazing little girl she is and what an amazing family she has.

Emily Ferrell said...

All I can say right now is that we love you and your family. I can't imagine how hard this is but I do know that Lord will help you through it. I hope Clara is not in pain and that the pain you are feeling will not be too much to bare. You are in my prayers daily.

Cajsa said...

Oh man, Clara's words brought tears to my eyes. Your family will continue to be in our prayers. You are all a great inspiration in listening to answered prayers!

Paradise said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Clara is beautiful!!

Gloria said...

My heart is so full of sorrow for you but I also understand the peace you are feeling! Thankgoodness for the blessings of the gospel and this sweet angel who has been a part of your family. Her grasp of her heavenly home is incredible. I pray that her journey will be comfortable and free of too much pain! Bless you all!

Brenda said...

You are such an amazing inspiration Natasha. Thinking of your family and Clara always.

Anonymous said...

Courage and Faith sometimes comes in small packages. We are humbled by Clara and your family. May The Lord hold you up during these difficult times? Our hearts go out to you Phil and Donna Tracy, Patsy and Don Thompson

Brande Hirai said...

Natasha, I dont personally know you or Clara but have recently met Brian. I have heard so much about your wonderful family from friends. We are neighbors now and I just wanted to say that I pray for that sweet girl everyday as I drive by. It has filled my heart to see her having some fun with the neighborhood kids. I wish you much love and peace.

Cameron VSJ said...

Hi,

I have a quick question about your blog, would you mind emailing me when you get a chance?

Thanks,

Cameron

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