Limbo

I really love this picture of her and her favorite musician Terry, during her last stay in the hospital.

No news isn't always good news. Sometimes it means I just don't know what to say or how to say it. We got the results from the CT scan Clara had on Monday and in a word it was frustrating, yet a reality we knew we might face given the extent of the disease. The abdominal tumor hasn't changed since the initial scan she had when first diagnosed. The head tumor decreased 3mm, possibly a result of the radiation treatments she received. Given this disappointment we recognize the miracle that despite no shrinkage she is feeling so much better than she did 3 months ago. We haven't lost hope. Maybe this last round of chemo she had will do the trick. We are in limbo till Friday when we will talk to the doctors to get an idea on where we go from here. Chances are she won't have surgery on Tuesday as we had tentatively planned on. We are learning to thrive (somewhat) on living in limbo.

In the meantime she is out of the hospital and doing pretty well. Every night I hook her up to an IV so she can get fluids since she isn't eating/drinking enough to sustain her. The anti-nausea med she is on is so much better so at least her nausea is under control. I'm definitely counting the new med and home IV's as blessings! 

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

“In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths” (Prov. 3:5–6).

In other news, our 3 boys started school yesterday. My heart ached not being able to be there, but Brian did a good job covering the mom duties. Definite "Father of the Year"...now if only he could coach them in taking less awkward pictures :)

After school pictures, maybe that's why they weren't as cooperative...we'll go with that.