3 months

May 23rd Clara was diagnosed with neuroblastoma and this new life of waking up each morning realizing that in fact it hasn't been a dream, my 2 year old has cancer, began. And now, three months later Clara is starting her fifth round of chemo. The last three months have been the hardest, most blessed days of my life. An experience I wouldn't wish on anyone, but then again, wish everyone could have an experience like this that brings blessings right along with the struggles. Clara still has a long road ahead of her. We've had a little taste thus far of what lies ahead. The sweet and the bitter, the ups and the downs. I'm slowly learning and trying to surrender my will to the will of the Lord, putting my trust in him and letting him carry my burdens. It's all I can do and all I need to do.

Tonight, Clara finally got her first dose of one of the two chemo drugs she is getting this round. She also had a renal ultrasound tonight to check her kidneys/bladder I'm hoping everything checks out normal! We are expecting her to be pretty nauseous this round as she was with round 3, but grateful she won't have to deal with the mucusitis (that's with the next round). So far she is peacefully sleeping. I'm sure when she wakes up in the morning she will want to continue the Anne of Green Gables marathon we had today, a welcome break from Mickey Mouse! She has c-diff again, so we are back in isolation...