Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Moments

Our hospital days are made up of lots of moments: silly, sad, happy, frustrating, sick, tired, funny and everything in between. Two year old tantrums while hooked up to IV chemo 24 hours a day take the terrible twos to a whole new level. I thought maybe she would get a "free pass" from the terrible twos, but I guess I should just be grateful she can have a fit, right? 

Content happy moments are fleeting while in the hospital so I have to act fast and take a picture.  This morning we had one of those moments before she launched into a 'get outta bed and go home' moment. 

I really think this picture is a symbol of Clara's determination, hope and sweetness. 

We had a quick video chat with the kids and Brian before they left for school this morning. Just before we were ready to disconnect, Chandler said, "Give me a hug, Clara!" And she grabbed the iPad and hugged it. Cutest thing ever! Moments like that drown out those 2 year old tantrums. I am grateful for those moments.

*Clara is almost 48 hours into the 72 hour chemo course of the SIXTH round of chemo she has had in the last 4 months. If she is eating and drinking enough to satisfy the doctor, she will be discharged on Friday. We have to stick around here since her counts will drop, and hope she can avoid the fierceness of mucositis and fevers that she had after round 4. On October 12th and 13th she will have the barrage of tests she had at the beginning to see if/where the cancer is still active. If there isn't any new growth she will be ready to head to Seattle for stem cell transplant. Lots of things on the horizon! Thank you again for your prayers and faith. The speedy recovery she had from surgery was a MIRACLE, and we know she will be blessed with more. He is a God of miracles and we know that. 

14 comments:

Teresa said...

What a precious picture, Natasha. Thanks for sharing it as well as your experiences and feelings. We love you.

Candace said...

Love that picture. Praying that the sores don't come for Clara this time.

pinklady said...

she is the sweetest thing! thank you for posting updates and letting us in so we can walk this journey with you...with our prayers, acts of service and love.

lovely lindsay said...

aw! that picture! perfection. love, lindsay

Mandy Rasmussen said...

Beautiful!!

Emily Ferrell said...

Love the pictures. Sorry to know kids still throw tantrums even when they are so sick but I guess it helps you remember that she is still just a 2 year old and still needs your guidance. We are praying for Clara to get through this Chemo without the extra sickness.

Jodi said...

Love the picture! She's so sweet!

Jami said...

I love that she hugged the iPad! And that picture is so perfect! Praying this round of chemo is better than the last...

kathryn johnston said...

i just want to reach out and hug her. she is just looks so sweet. what a beautiful girl.

Dlovesocks said...

What a sweet picture! Your post truly touched my heart. Thank you for sharing!

Shannon Lybbert Low said...

Amazing that her eyes can twinkle, even when she's sick!

Kori said...

That is such a beautiful picture! Love it.

Paradise said...

LOVE IT! Life is beautiful! This picture needs to be in your bedroom for life, to remind you of this incredible journey! You are still constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

Krista said...

She's smiling at her beautiful and amazing mother.I know, she knows that she is blessed to have you caring for and loving her.